It may appear that right now my cup is half empty. But appearances can be deceiving. Especially when you focus on the negative.
In reality, my cup is at least three-quarters full. I have much to be grateful for.
For starters, my wrists x-ray results: Right wrist normal. Left wrist shows “changes consistent with age.” At first I was like, age? What do you mean age? I’m still in the prime of my life.
But then I calmed down and realized that it’s true. I have aged. Just looking at my fingers tells me how much wear and tear this old body has taken. And it’s good wear and tear that came from caring for my family, caring for my patients, going without sleep, pushing with that last ounce of energy to set up a bed for that new admission, walking mile after mile to make my rounds among all my patients and nurses, driving leagues to cart my kids and their friends to school, to the mall and back. All these actions, done out of love, for people who depended on me.
So, Ok, I accept this diagnosis and I’m proud to have it because that means I’ve lived long enough to make a difference in many people’s lives. And furthermore, I’m lucky that the osteoarthritis chose to settle into my left wrist first and not my right. Who knows, it may never reach for my right wrist, but OA has shown me a kindness. Now when the pain sets in I give thanks.
I also give thanks for being squashed during my mammogram last month. For some reason it was less fun than usual this year. That cold, cold machine and hard, hard plastic up against my ribs left me sore and reddened. Every time the tech said, “You can breathe now,” I wondered how exactly.
But all came back normal, as did my gynecological checkup. The discomfort involved with the mammogram is a small price to pay for one more year’s peace of mind.
I’m thankful that I can enjoy my children and grandchildren. I’m grateful to have them in my life, to know that they are there every single day. I can never, ever be alone because I have them.
I’m grateful to have a man in my life who tries to make me happy every single day. There have been ups and there have been downs along the way. The ups so high and the downs so low that sometimes I think the best word to describe us is cleave. A word that simultaneously means to cut apart and to bind together.
A few days ago, we returned to St. Augustine, Florida, to explore the ancient city some more, to reach back into the history that reflects our heritage. To spend some couple time alone and to celebrate 34 years together, 34 years! That’s more than half my lifetime, but after all this time things certainly go a lot smoother and are far more relaxing and satisfying. The x-ray results were correct. There are changes consistent with age.
Glad you enjoyed yourself. Love St. Augustine! Encouraged by your great attitude.
Thank you, it is a beautiful place.
Irma, you always make me smile. you got it all and know it and aren’t afraid to share it. And we all feel like we got it all after reading your words. Have a great weekend.
Thank you, Leigh. Not all, but I am lucky in many ways. Something I try to tell myself every day. Sometimes it’s so easy to forget.
Changes consistent with age? Yes, of course, including the wisdom, poise and grace with which you approach life. Those are also changes consistent with age.
Yes, we hope we get wiser with age. It’s one good thing about it. One thing I keep by my desk is the Serenity Prayer. It helps during the down times. Thanks, Carla.
I love that despite all the challenges life can dish out, that there are people like you that continue to live and enjoy life in all its moments. Thanks for this lovely post. Stay well 🙂
They say you never get more than you can handle. Sometimes I have to wonder about that. All we can do is try to stay positive. Thanks, J. Hope you are doing well.